Study Women

I just finished reading all of the assigned readings for my women's studies class...that I was supposed to have done Tuesday....now I need to write a 2 page paper, and I don't know what to write. I feel that it has to be especially good since it's almost 3 days late, and I want to take a perhaps more unique point-of-view and actually write something interesting than what's blatantly obvious. It's true I didn't attend class the whole past week, but there is the wonderful invention of email which eliminates that excuse. The Doctor said, "Anything worth doing, is worth doing poorly." It's more important to just turn it in than obsess over its perfection and delay its submission any longer. I wonder if I'm too soft on myself, or if I'm too hard on myself, or if I put the right amount of pressure on myself (Goldilocks syndrome?). This is something I've always wondered about me. I've always procrastinated. You put so much stress and pressure on yourself. Why does one fall into this habit? My mother is a big procrastinator, so perhaps I inherited it from her. I could've started this earlier, although my illness would've delayed it somewhat regardless. I'm finally on my way to recovery. I feel more human-like and less zombie-like. I want to do well in this class, in all my classes, but I seem to find ways to sabotage myself. I care about my teachers' opinion of me, especially if I like the teacher. I want them to think well of me instead of a lazy, irresponsible girl. Right now I'm procrastinating by writing in my blog obsessing over it instead of just writing the damn paper and emailing it to her. I over-analyze myself constantly, try to look at myself as if this girl is someone I know and I'm evaluating her. For years I tried to work on my negative habits and faults, but I seem to not make much headway. Part of becoming the woman I want to be is to actually take care of things as they arise instead of putting off dealing with it for as long as possible. It doesn't matter what it is. Become a responsible and efficient woman.

The two rules of procrastination: 1) Do it today. 2) Tomorrow will be today tomorrow. ~Author Unknown