First Day

So, I sit in front of my computer, procrastinating homework. It was a fairly good first day. I tried to get out of my Spanish class, but it's a requirement, which I don't agree with. It should be a choice to take a second language class. I need to write a paragraph on my "aspiraciones" for the new year. Quiero perder 50 libras - I want to lose 50 pounds. I had to look up lose and pounds.

I talked to Diego about Christina. He said to be the bigger person and not get all immature. That's kind of hard when she's 6' and I'm 5'3". I think he thinks I should let it go, but he can understand that I'm hurt. Very hurt. I don't know what to do about it. Am I making too big of a deal out of it? Should I let it go and tell her that I will still help her despite that I'm not the maid of honor, even if I really don't want to and feel betrayed? Should I feel betrayed? I know it's her wedding, and she can have whomever she wants to be her MOH. She talked about possibly having two maids of honor, even though I think that's stupid. What if she asks me to be her second MOH? I know it sounds immature, but I really don't want to be #2. I want to be #1, dammit!

I look around my room, and wonder, "How did I end up like this?"